sleep. Before the ‘Big Day’ again. But that is too much to ask isn’t it??!!
I go back into the hospital to try for the induction again and this is the night that I really need a good nights rest (as it’s hard to sleep in a hospital) but I can’t get it. Why?? Acid Reflux. Tonight it has been particularly bad. So……I am awake at 3:30am and on the computer.

Thankfully, I don’t have to be at the hospital until 2pm again. So I have a bit of time to go back to bed and try and get more sleep. As I am already packed and ready to go from last time

I had reflexology on Friday after I got home from the hospital and it was really nice. So if it doesn’t help anything, it was a nice way to spend an hour. Then on Saturday, my mum generously spent an hour massaging my feet for me!! It was sooo nice AND then…..last night (sunday) Rick spent an hour massaging my feet as well. And when he came with me over the weekend for my CTG’s he has been rubbing my feet in the wards as well. So I have had a nice relaxing weekend of foot massage. And it has been lovely!!

So after all of that, I kicked Rick to the spare room for the night so that I could make sure I got a good nights sleep, only to end up ruining it for myself without his help. I hate this. I have absolutely 100% had ENOUGH of this!

It’s Saturday night and I have 5 sleeps till I go in to be Induced.
Rick is looking forward to Thursday. Which of course makes me happy. And we are both hoping that he will be able to stay the night with me in the hospital, even if he has to sleep on the floor. He has been really supportive and positive the last week and it is making me feel confident about what lies ahead. Father in Law has lent me his portable d.v.d player and we are going to get some movies, so just in case I am in there for a long time, I will have something to keep me occupied.

Went shopping today and we picked up the Baby Movement Monitor by Tommee Tippee. But we are thinking of taking it back tomorrow and getting a different one. Also got a head support thingy for the capsule so that baby doesn’t have a lolling around little head when she is in the car. And last but not least we got some window shade thingys that will suffice for now as the car’s windows are not yet tinted.

Still have everything to get done. Tomorrow we have the garage to clean out and to organise to make it easier to get baby in and out of the car. Might pick up some picture hanging wire so we can get on with putting up the piccies in her room too. Getting my hair done on Monday morning and maybe on Tuesday I will have a session of Reflexology done. Whether it works or not I don’t know, but I am looking forward to being pampered for the hour

Holy Crap.
Only 1 week to go!!!
Went in for my antenatal appointment yesterday and saw the OB and pretty much straight off the bat she said she was moving my Induction forward as I have diabetes and it should be done at 38 weeks not 39. So it is what it is and I am totally freaking my pants off.

It’s awesome knowing when she will be roughly arriving into the world tho! I can have everyone around me (or nearby) right when I need them to be!!! And who wouldn’t want their family around them at such a time??!!

I am happy that I only have 1 more week of Gestational Diabetes and Insulin Injections to go. I really want to stick to the diet that I have been on tho!! I couldn’t recommend it enough I am not going to miss the back pain, crap sleep, acid reflux/heartburn, tiredness, breathlessness or the daggy/boring clothes though!

I am scared.

I am excited.

But mostly I am scared…..

and I can almost see it! I am quite nervous about this appointment tomorrow morning. Sometimes I wish we had gone private, just for the fact that I would see the one doctor only and they would of probably told me everything I needed to know along the way. I am sick of second guessing what is going to happen. I want THEM to tell ME what is going to happen. I shouldn’t have to ask!

Anyways, I guess I will know more tomorrow. I would give anything to have the same guy that I had at my last appointment, simply for the fact that he was english and comprehendable and seemed decisive. I couldn’t find anything in my pre-natal records that said anything about booking in a day for inducement at my 36 week appointment, but then I can’t really read their shorthand anyway. I wish that Rick was able to come with me and give me some support

I will be really pinged off if I go in tomorrow to be told a different story. I have to try and keep my cool as I don’t want to get mad at someone over it….which is possible these days. Well I guess I will drop in tomorrow and log the details of what happened at that appointment. Here’s hoping!!

Once Thursday is here I will be happy. I hate not knowing what is happening, when I have so much to organise. I haven’t packed my bags yet or anything, but I have most things that I need to fill them now. Once I know what is happening I will go ahead and do that. And I will get the baby’s room finished too.

I’m hoping to get my boots soled on the weekend maybe as I want to be able to wear them soon. And there is no way I am going to wear them with the possibility of slipping over again….spesh now I am heading for 36 weeks along. I want to take the last couple of weeks easy as it’s going to be the last I will get to myself for a VERY long time and I want to be refreshed and ready to go (as much as is possible).

I find myself going into the baby’s room, just to look at things and to stand in there and imagine our baby in there and to touch her things. I can’t really believe it’s all happening. It wasn’t that long ago that I thought having a baby would be the last thing that would happen for a looong time…..and now it’s just around the corner practically. It’s just so damn freaky.

I am out of breath constantly too now. And sleeping….well what IS sleep exactly?? I can’t sleep on my left side as it hurts me and so I end up on my back half the time and then of course wake up because of it at 2:30am with indigestion/heartburn. TUMS is my best friend now. I’m sick to death of taking blood levels and injecting insulin now too.

Yep another one of those days again today!!

Like I needed another one.  Not.

I so hope that it goes away once the baby is born.  I feel so on edge and so stressed out today.  It doesn’t help that I have cleaned the house this morning either.  So automatically I am on edge about any mess that gets brought in,  that isn’t my doing…..which is most of the time.  I’m fat and grumpy and sick and tired of general everyday stuff.  And my boobs!!! I am going to be able to offer shares in them soon,  they are getting so big!  And unfortunately for Rick,  no that isn’t a good thing,  cuz I am in no mood for any rough and tumble EVER….so bigger boobs = bugger all.

I am reading a bunch of stuff in a health forum about pregnancy and birth etc today.  Just to see what others experience and what I can expect to come my way.  Being a woman just is no fun.  Isn’t it bad enough that we have like 40% more fat cells than a man and that we have periods and cellulite that shows more and the list goes oooooon.  I don’t know what is in store for me with the whole birthing experience.  I can only take what is given to me.  It just seems unfair that the shite continues after you have had the baby too and then normal shite in a womans life takes over again.

It’s just plain cruel.

So today was a boring, uneventful day. But it isn’t like I was expecting something other than that either. But it does get boring and tedious. I should be grateful for the last few weeks I have to myself really. I did a bit of washing of the new baby stuff we still haven’t organised. I am nearly done getting all the stuff together for the Hospital/Birth. And I did a teeny weeny bit of cleaning. But not much. I am going to be making Fish & Salad for dinner. I was really bad today and had a Big Mac and Large Fries today. I shouldn’t have. But I just didn’t fancy Cruskits again

I am off tomorrow for the day to have my last selfish shopping trip. Any spare money that has come my way (and then some) has been spent on buying things for our baby. Which I enjoy doing very much. But this time I decided that I will spend a little on myself whilst I still can. Something for winter, maybe some clothes or a pair of shoes….whatever I fancy. But I bet you I still end up bringing things home for the baby as well….I can’t help myself!!

I am looking forward to just spending some time trawling the stores and looking at nice things by myself. I will probably head up to Chermside Shopping Centre, it’s got all the stores I want to check out. And I think I will get a new book too. I bought a nice denim pinafore off ebay this week, something I thought would be handy with breastfeeding….but of course, with this huge belly of mine I can’t really tell how it looks….

Well I don’t have much else to report right now. I guess I had better get on with making dinner and finishing the dishes for the evening!!

Just feel like writing about my thoughts today. I have been doing a lot of research about pregnancy symptoms today and about being induced and I am on info overload. I will find out for sure and for certain next Thursday (17th) if I am to be induced. As they are supposed to book me a date for it at that particular appointment. After a bit of research I am a lot better informed as to what kind of inducement can occur and the situations that can arise from being induced.

I don’t have very long to go now until baby comes and I am getting a bit scared about giving birth…as I am sure 99% of the pregnant population do! All I can do is be as well prepared as possible. Thankfully my Husband and my Auntie are very supportive and positive. And I am very grateful that I have them both. I am hoping that if I am induced that my mother will be able to make it, esp if I have a date booked in before hand as there is no reason why she can’t clear her schedule for that time. I really want her there for me too.

I am going to get stuck into having everything ready to go in the next week or so. So then the last 2 weeks I have to myself I can be utterly lazy and selfish and relax to the max, I probably won’t ever get much time to myself again for ages, so I want to enjoy it whilst it lasts *if that’s entirely possible?*

I have discovered that most inducements produce very very strong contractions quite quickly and many women end up not being able to have pain relief for some reason. But one positive is that labour is shorter if you are induced in most cases. The shorter the better I say!!

I am going to pop a picture in todays blog that my mother took of me yesterday. It’s one of the better ones.

I want my baby out as I am tired of all the probs that I have endured throughout the pregnancy.  But I know I will miss being pregnant too.  I feel really special,  as I get a lot of attention the bigger my belly gets and I know how special it is to be able to have this baby as I know women who cannot.  And it is such a special time.  But it is how it is and I will never be able to have my cake and eat it.  She has to come out and I would rather a bit sooner than later

Drove up to my mum n dads early this morning.  But by the time we arrived it was after 10am already.  We went to the markets down the main street and to a few shops and then headed to a pub with a gorgeous view for lunch.  It was my parent’s shout for lunch.  And I ended up having a grilled chicken & cheese salad sandwich with chunky fries and a pint of lemon and lime bitters.  I shouldn’t have.  But there really wasn’t much of a muchness to choose from anyway.  It was a nice lunch,  left there feeling content.

Then we headed back to the folks place and chatted and had a coffee and my mum tried to do some pregnancy photo’s of me,  but the day was such a gloomy one so it didn’t really work out.  Now it looks like she is going to come and stay for a night next weekend or sometime,  to try and do some better shots before I have the baby.

I ended up driving us there and back,  which wasn’t too bad.  But it’s a long drive both ways and now I am totally bushed again!  But this week will be a quiet one.  Will do a bit of selfish/spoil myself shopping at the end of the week maybe and will start getting my Hospital/Labour bag packed too.  Ewww…. going to have to leave it here.  I am getting damned acid reflux/indigestion again