Yes that is me to a T right now.
As it is for all mums with newborns.
My little Ted is spending a lot more time awake nowadays and she is quite alert. She would sleep most times in my arms if I could afford to spare them, but of course there is always so much to ‘be done’. Right now she is in my right arm whilst I type with my left.

Finding somewhere dark around here for her to sleep at is really hard, as we don’t really have anyplace that has curtains to make the room dark enough. But I am getting by. I took her to do the weekly shop today and she was a little gem and slept through most of it and didn’t cry or fuss. I have to try n get some photo’s in of her this week, but I have heaps to do and 2 appointments at the Hospital (sigh) this week. And I should prob get myself off to a doctor to collect that pill

I don’t have much else to report on….Summer is growing well and doing well and making more and more little cooing noises everyday. I love her to little bits n pieces. And want to squish her all day…but alas I am soo tired…

Wow!
Already…Summer is one month old tonight! It’s so strange. It feels like forever ago, but only yesterday, all at the same time that I even gave birth to her. I do miss being pregnant. But only ever so slightly. I am in absolute love with our little girl. She’s just so cute! I need to get photographing her, whilst she is still quite small. She is my little sunshine

I love Rick.
I love Summer.

That’s all I wanted to say

Went well.
I had a phone call from Mental Health. I turned down their offer to help as I don’t feel I need it right now. But I know what to do and where to go if I change my mind. I am quite exhausted. We also had the visit from the Midwives from the hospital. They recommended that Rick and I write a letter each of complaint about my birth experience and stay in the hospital. We are mulling it over at the moment as it’s still so raw, we aren’t sure if it’s a path we’d like to take just yet. All I know is, I am afraid of going back to that damned place, and I have to do that next Thursday.

Summer was weighed today, she was 2190 when we left the hospital on Monday and today she weighed in at 3100. So it’s good news!! She is also feeding on bigger amounts too, but is kind of all over the place some of the time when it comes to food and sleeping. Which is to be expected.

I hurt for her every time I hear her cry, but I just have to remember that she is only trying to communicate with me about what she wants. Rick has been fantastic. Better than I expected. Last night he let me sleep through after her midnight feed, as he took the other two feeds before he went to work. Tonight I will take the main 2 feeds and then I am intending on napping the rest of the day and taking it easy, instead of trying to be super woman and do all the chores and so on.

Well tonight I sign off with “I love my husband so very much and I love my little baby Summer and I wouldn’t have my life any other way!!!”.

Last night was not so bad. We have had so much advice on how to look after Summer, that basically we hardly flinched when we had to do everything for ourselves the first time last night. Summer woke up several times during the night for feeds, but since we are a great team, it was all good.

Today is the first day that I am officially alone to look after Summer and I am loving doing just that! She is most certainly the apple of my eye and I am terribly proud of her. And of Rick come to think of it. He has been the best support a new mother could have!