and for nothing. Sigh…as any mother with a baby will know, it’s hard to take your baby out anywhere and expect it to go smoothly. Well I took Summer today to my appointment at the hospital and she was FANTASTIC! BUT……..we went all that way and through all that effort for nothing. I get there and was told that the doctor was out on call and I could wait if I wanted to, but it may take a couple of hours or more. Or I could book another appointment. So I opted for another appointment. But I’m thinking on my way home ‘couldn’t they have flippin’ well called me to tell me that first?!’ before I trawled my baby all the way there?! Arghhhh! So now I have to faff on doing it all over again next Friday. And those of you who know me and my experience at that place, know that I would rather hand over my legs than to have to keep going back to that nightmare.

Who in their right mind would wait around that long with a baby anyway?? Where lots of sick people are?? idiot heads.

Even tho it can be annoying, I have to admit, I love it when Summer falls asleep in my arms or nuzzled in my neck/shoulder during a feed. The only reason it can be annoying is because it’s feed time and she should be eating not falling asleep. But she is so gorgeous when she is sleeping. If I could spare my arm, I would let her sleep in it all the time. But of course I can’t spare an arm so I have to put her to bed. She is starting to get to that point where, when she is crying, just me picking her up and holding her calms her right down. She was doing that last night whilst I was trying to cook the dinner.

I love her I love her I love her and I want to eat her all up!!

Oh and I took her for her appointment today at the Hospital and all is well Yay! *I knew it was tho*

Summer had her hearing test at the hospital this morning and of course as we knew she would, she passed! We (Rick & I) fail to see how they couldn’t of fit this test in, when we were already in the hospital for nearly a week after she was born. It only took all of like about 7-9 minutes to do. But it’s done now and she is fine and we are all fine and all is well

Went well.
I had a phone call from Mental Health. I turned down their offer to help as I don’t feel I need it right now. But I know what to do and where to go if I change my mind. I am quite exhausted. We also had the visit from the Midwives from the hospital. They recommended that Rick and I write a letter each of complaint about my birth experience and stay in the hospital. We are mulling it over at the moment as it’s still so raw, we aren’t sure if it’s a path we’d like to take just yet. All I know is, I am afraid of going back to that damned place, and I have to do that next Thursday.

Summer was weighed today, she was 2190 when we left the hospital on Monday and today she weighed in at 3100. So it’s good news!! She is also feeding on bigger amounts too, but is kind of all over the place some of the time when it comes to food and sleeping. Which is to be expected.

I hurt for her every time I hear her cry, but I just have to remember that she is only trying to communicate with me about what she wants. Rick has been fantastic. Better than I expected. Last night he let me sleep through after her midnight feed, as he took the other two feeds before he went to work. Tonight I will take the main 2 feeds and then I am intending on napping the rest of the day and taking it easy, instead of trying to be super woman and do all the chores and so on.

Well tonight I sign off with “I love my husband so very much and I love my little baby Summer and I wouldn’t have my life any other way!!!”.

So tomorrow (thurs) I have an appointment with the Diabetes Educator and hopefully another appointment with an OB. I am really going to plead for another Growth Scan or to bring the Induction date forward. I am really really worried that my baby is going to get too big. I guess I will see just how much tomorrow when they measure me.

I am starting to get my hospital/labour bags packed. Just in case. After tomorrow I only have one more appointment at the hospital and then I go in for my Induction. I am freaking out about it. In one way it’s nice to know basically when my baby will be on her way, so I can make plans for family to be nearby. But then it’s scary at the same time as it’s not going to be a spontaneous thing, it’s planned and therefore I know when one of the biggest days of my life is going to be happening and of course I am scared of the whole process.

We have the baby’s chest of drawers…..sitting in a box…..waiting for us to assemble it. I hope that we can do that this weekend at some point and then I can get on with finishing the baby’s room.

and I can almost see it! I am quite nervous about this appointment tomorrow morning. Sometimes I wish we had gone private, just for the fact that I would see the one doctor only and they would of probably told me everything I needed to know along the way. I am sick of second guessing what is going to happen. I want THEM to tell ME what is going to happen. I shouldn’t have to ask!

Anyways, I guess I will know more tomorrow. I would give anything to have the same guy that I had at my last appointment, simply for the fact that he was english and comprehendable and seemed decisive. I couldn’t find anything in my pre-natal records that said anything about booking in a day for inducement at my 36 week appointment, but then I can’t really read their shorthand anyway. I wish that Rick was able to come with me and give me some support

I will be really pinged off if I go in tomorrow to be told a different story. I have to try and keep my cool as I don’t want to get mad at someone over it….which is possible these days. Well I guess I will drop in tomorrow and log the details of what happened at that appointment. Here’s hoping!!

Yey!!! It’s raining!!!  It’s just after 5pm and I have been waiting all day for it to rain.  If you know me well,  then you will know this kind of weather is my absolute fave

Well I am nearly done with the whole Hospital/Birth bag.  I went shopping yesterday as planned and got lots of things I needed and a few selfish Items that I didn’t.  I ended up with another pair of boots.  And 2 books instead of 1.  Pretty much everything else I have purchased was for essential items,  such as tops with the ability to wear and breastfeed from.  And I bought a lovely and soft and warm dressing gown for the winter and some light cardigans,  but that is about as exciting as my shopping expedition got.

I will hopefully be going to get the chest of drawers for the baby’s room this weekend.  And we will have to put that together…but then at least I will have somewhere permanent to store all of her stuff.  I will start packing my bags for the hospital now too,  seeing as I have most of the list together.

I am starting to get quite anxious about what lies ahead now.  It is going to be such a huge transition and I don’t think my Husband understands the impact it will have on him or us.  But hey,  he will know all about it soon enough!

So that ends that chapter.  There really isn’t anything else I can write about today.  It’s really dark already and I have been sitting at the computer for hours playing games.  Tomorrow is housework day,  so I will relax today.  I haven’t been cleaning the whole house as much lately,  I have decided that I am going to take it easy up until baby arrives now.  Doing a big clean once enough will have to suffice.  Luckily for me,  Rick doesn’t care one way or another

Rick decided he wanted to go to Aldi today. There is one about 9 minutes drive away from where we live and so we went and checked it out today. Haven’t been there for a while. It’s much the same as it was years ago when we first went, when it first opened. So Rick got what he went there for and I got a few bits n bobs for the baby. Got a couple of Winnie The Pooh framed prints to put up in her room. And a tub of Magnetic Alphabet Plastic letters for the fridge and going to try a pack of their baby wipes too. Then we went to Coles and got some grocery and a couple of things for my hospital bag.

Now I am sitting at home enjoying a cappuccino and watching the pigeons sitting on the bird aviary, preening themselves. Boy they look so SOFT . Then I am going to make myself a sandwich for lunch and probably watch some foxtel and read a bit. Have to get cracking on my childbirth dvd too. Quite a nice day today.