Wow.  What a day!

It began with getting up really really tired from all the night/early morning feeds and getting Summer and I ready for our appointment at 10:30am at the hospital.  To sitting there for 2 HOURS,  only to spend a measly 6 minutes or so with the Gyno!  I can tell you this much,  I am NOT in a hurry to ever take my fat ass back there!  It wasn’t fair on Summer to have to be there for that long,  let alone me.  Then we finally got home at about 1pm and I gave Summer another small feed and then tried to have some food for the first time since yesterday and for both of us to have a bit of a nap.  Well she got a teeny weeny nap,  I got nil.  Then Rick came home.

Then we had to pack the nappy bag and Summer back into the car for our visit to the GP for all 3 of us.  Rick had an earache,  I needed a script and Summer had her 2 month vaccinations done.  And,  well….anyone who has children know that babys and needles do not make for happy campers.  Then we popped round to the MIL’s as they lived just up the road from the doctors we were at and Summer had a feed there.  Then we had to pop round to the supermarket to pick up some chicken for dinner.  So all in all it has been a MASSIVE day for her and I.  And since coming home,  she has been very very fussy.

All I can say is,  who can blame her??  She’s hardly had any decent sleep and her feeding hasn’t been so smooth either.  So now it is just after 9:30pm and I have finally just got her down to sleep,  after much crying and sooking and feeding attempts and hugs and playtime etc.  I think she was overtired.  So I am not in any hurry to put her through a day like that again!  Poor little chickaloo.

Even tho it can be annoying, I have to admit, I love it when Summer falls asleep in my arms or nuzzled in my neck/shoulder during a feed. The only reason it can be annoying is because it’s feed time and she should be eating not falling asleep. But she is so gorgeous when she is sleeping. If I could spare my arm, I would let her sleep in it all the time. But of course I can’t spare an arm so I have to put her to bed. She is starting to get to that point where, when she is crying, just me picking her up and holding her calms her right down. She was doing that last night whilst I was trying to cook the dinner.

I love her I love her I love her and I want to eat her all up!!

Oh and I took her for her appointment today at the Hospital and all is well Yay! *I knew it was tho*

Well we tried the Karicare Gold+ for just over 2 weeks and we weren’t happy with it. So we have changed to the Nestle NAN Gold range instead as it has bifidus and stuff in it and it’s unfortunately the most expensive on the market, but we have been fortunate enough to find some on sale and if it works out we are going to have to hunt it down on sale. She has taken to it, like it was still Karicare, so no issues there. Her #2’s have changed in colour. And sadly it seems she is a gas sufferer. So during every feed, we have to burp her approx 3-4 times and keep her elevated when she is finished for about 10 mins and also rub her stomach clockwise to help her expel that gas. It seems to be working, so that is great!

She is quite an aggressive feeder too, which probably doesn’t help the gas side of things as she gulps her food down half the time. But we are hoping that this formula does the trick as far as the digestion side goes and hopefully it will help with the gas too

Was okay. I tried to sleep in a little, in between Summers feeds. I got some more housework done whilst she slept. The Mental Health place called me again and kinda made me agree to come in to see one of their case workers just to make sure everything was going okay etc, to rule out any other problems that might be lurking. When Rick called me to say he was on his way home, I told him that they’d called and he was pretty angry, saying no I won’t be going, there is no need too and it’s going to be too difficult with a newborn too and that they originally said that they would be able to send someone around to our house.

So when Rick got home, he called them and cancelled that appointment and they said that they would call me about coming around to the house to visit instead. Which to be honest with you, I don’t bloody want either. I just want to be left the hell alone. The more people that I have on my back like this, the more my confidence in being a new mum falls. And that is NOT what I need!!!

I actually cooked my first meal in ages. It was nice. But my appetite isn’t that hearty at the moment. Rick bought the electric bottle warmer today too
It is making things sooo much easier!!! We are basically feeding around the 3/4 hourly mark, but because Summers feeding is so sporadic at the moment, it’s hard to know when to have a bottle ready (we keep them ready to go in fridge daily). So the electric warmer gets it ready for you, whilst you changed nappy and clean bubby up. Yes……it’s a luxury……but it’s saving water for us……and time…….and our sanity…….and I am happy to use it whilst we can. Who wouldn’t be???!!!

Went well.
I had a phone call from Mental Health. I turned down their offer to help as I don’t feel I need it right now. But I know what to do and where to go if I change my mind. I am quite exhausted. We also had the visit from the Midwives from the hospital. They recommended that Rick and I write a letter each of complaint about my birth experience and stay in the hospital. We are mulling it over at the moment as it’s still so raw, we aren’t sure if it’s a path we’d like to take just yet. All I know is, I am afraid of going back to that damned place, and I have to do that next Thursday.

Summer was weighed today, she was 2190 when we left the hospital on Monday and today she weighed in at 3100. So it’s good news!! She is also feeding on bigger amounts too, but is kind of all over the place some of the time when it comes to food and sleeping. Which is to be expected.

I hurt for her every time I hear her cry, but I just have to remember that she is only trying to communicate with me about what she wants. Rick has been fantastic. Better than I expected. Last night he let me sleep through after her midnight feed, as he took the other two feeds before he went to work. Tonight I will take the main 2 feeds and then I am intending on napping the rest of the day and taking it easy, instead of trying to be super woman and do all the chores and so on.

Well tonight I sign off with “I love my husband so very much and I love my little baby Summer and I wouldn’t have my life any other way!!!”.

Last night was not so bad. We have had so much advice on how to look after Summer, that basically we hardly flinched when we had to do everything for ourselves the first time last night. Summer woke up several times during the night for feeds, but since we are a great team, it was all good.

Today is the first day that I am officially alone to look after Summer and I am loving doing just that! She is most certainly the apple of my eye and I am terribly proud of her. And of Rick come to think of it. He has been the best support a new mother could have!