Yep another one of those days again today!!

Like I needed another one.  Not.

I so hope that it goes away once the baby is born.  I feel so on edge and so stressed out today.  It doesn’t help that I have cleaned the house this morning either.  So automatically I am on edge about any mess that gets brought in,  that isn’t my doing…..which is most of the time.  I’m fat and grumpy and sick and tired of general everyday stuff.  And my boobs!!! I am going to be able to offer shares in them soon,  they are getting so big!  And unfortunately for Rick,  no that isn’t a good thing,  cuz I am in no mood for any rough and tumble EVER….so bigger boobs = bugger all.

I am reading a bunch of stuff in a health forum about pregnancy and birth etc today.  Just to see what others experience and what I can expect to come my way.  Being a woman just is no fun.  Isn’t it bad enough that we have like 40% more fat cells than a man and that we have periods and cellulite that shows more and the list goes oooooon.  I don’t know what is in store for me with the whole birthing experience.  I can only take what is given to me.  It just seems unfair that the shite continues after you have had the baby too and then normal shite in a womans life takes over again.

It’s just plain cruel.

Just feel like writing about my thoughts today. I have been doing a lot of research about pregnancy symptoms today and about being induced and I am on info overload. I will find out for sure and for certain next Thursday (17th) if I am to be induced. As they are supposed to book me a date for it at that particular appointment. After a bit of research I am a lot better informed as to what kind of inducement can occur and the situations that can arise from being induced.

I don’t have very long to go now until baby comes and I am getting a bit scared about giving birth…as I am sure 99% of the pregnant population do! All I can do is be as well prepared as possible. Thankfully my Husband and my Auntie are very supportive and positive. And I am very grateful that I have them both. I am hoping that if I am induced that my mother will be able to make it, esp if I have a date booked in before hand as there is no reason why she can’t clear her schedule for that time. I really want her there for me too.

I am going to get stuck into having everything ready to go in the next week or so. So then the last 2 weeks I have to myself I can be utterly lazy and selfish and relax to the max, I probably won’t ever get much time to myself again for ages, so I want to enjoy it whilst it lasts *if that’s entirely possible?*

I have discovered that most inducements produce very very strong contractions quite quickly and many women end up not being able to have pain relief for some reason. But one positive is that labour is shorter if you are induced in most cases. The shorter the better I say!!

I am going to pop a picture in todays blog that my mother took of me yesterday. It’s one of the better ones.

I want my baby out as I am tired of all the probs that I have endured throughout the pregnancy.  But I know I will miss being pregnant too.  I feel really special,  as I get a lot of attention the bigger my belly gets and I know how special it is to be able to have this baby as I know women who cannot.  And it is such a special time.  But it is how it is and I will never be able to have my cake and eat it.  She has to come out and I would rather a bit sooner than later