Yes that is me to a T right now.
As it is for all mums with newborns.
My little Ted is spending a lot more time awake nowadays and she is quite alert. She would sleep most times in my arms if I could afford to spare them, but of course there is always so much to ‘be done’. Right now she is in my right arm whilst I type with my left.

Finding somewhere dark around here for her to sleep at is really hard, as we don’t really have anyplace that has curtains to make the room dark enough. But I am getting by. I took her to do the weekly shop today and she was a little gem and slept through most of it and didn’t cry or fuss. I have to try n get some photo’s in of her this week, but I have heaps to do and 2 appointments at the Hospital (sigh) this week. And I should prob get myself off to a doctor to collect that pill

I don’t have much else to report on….Summer is growing well and doing well and making more and more little cooing noises everyday. I love her to little bits n pieces. And want to squish her all day…but alas I am soo tired…

I love Rick.
I love Summer.

That’s all I wanted to say

Nothing much to report today. Was a nice simple day. Just did a tiny bit of housework and looked after Summer. My parents came in the evening to stay the night and it was the first time that my dad met Summer. So that was nice. Mental Health called and they want to send someone around on Monday. Not really looking forward to it, but I want them off my back. So once they have been and seen for themselves that I don’t need them, they can bugger off!!

Tried a little spot of Breast Feeding today. Might keep giving it a little shot, you never know what it might lead too…..tho I think that the Hospital ruined my chances. Which makes me sad. I am tired. I will be doing the late feeds tonight and Rick will do the early morning one of about 6:30am ish. I don’t know how mothers who exclusively breast feed manage. It is something to admire!

Went well.
I had a phone call from Mental Health. I turned down their offer to help as I don’t feel I need it right now. But I know what to do and where to go if I change my mind. I am quite exhausted. We also had the visit from the Midwives from the hospital. They recommended that Rick and I write a letter each of complaint about my birth experience and stay in the hospital. We are mulling it over at the moment as it’s still so raw, we aren’t sure if it’s a path we’d like to take just yet. All I know is, I am afraid of going back to that damned place, and I have to do that next Thursday.

Summer was weighed today, she was 2190 when we left the hospital on Monday and today she weighed in at 3100. So it’s good news!! She is also feeding on bigger amounts too, but is kind of all over the place some of the time when it comes to food and sleeping. Which is to be expected.

I hurt for her every time I hear her cry, but I just have to remember that she is only trying to communicate with me about what she wants. Rick has been fantastic. Better than I expected. Last night he let me sleep through after her midnight feed, as he took the other two feeds before he went to work. Tonight I will take the main 2 feeds and then I am intending on napping the rest of the day and taking it easy, instead of trying to be super woman and do all the chores and so on.

Well tonight I sign off with “I love my husband so very much and I love my little baby Summer and I wouldn’t have my life any other way!!!”.

Last night was not so bad. We have had so much advice on how to look after Summer, that basically we hardly flinched when we had to do everything for ourselves the first time last night. Summer woke up several times during the night for feeds, but since we are a great team, it was all good.

Today is the first day that I am officially alone to look after Summer and I am loving doing just that! She is most certainly the apple of my eye and I am terribly proud of her. And of Rick come to think of it. He has been the best support a new mother could have!

……..I will fill my blog up with all the stories I have about our baby Summer. I can’t wait to have it all down ‘on paper’, so that I can look back on it all some day. Though it has been the most traumatic time of my life….it has also been the most beautiful.

This of course is why…..

Yes. Typical. It’s 4am and I should be fast asleep in bed. Alas, I am awake typing on the computer another blog…..about….??? I am not awake from lack of tiredness. Nooo, far from it. I am not awake thinking about what lies ahead today either. Tho I am most definitely thinking…..

I am awake through a combination of things, some being hubby and some being mine. Basically I figured, that, since Rick will be getting off to work early this morning, I will just suffer until then and go back to bed once he’s gone. In hindsight I should never have slept in the same room (let alone bed) as anyone tonight and I will remember that for next time. Yes, we have a big spare bed, but it’s covered in laundry that I folded yesterday and a big bag of vacuum sealed clothes that I have to put back into the cupboard and that mattress is just way too hard for sleeping on, in my condition. Next time, I will send Rick in there. He can sleep just bout anywhere these days.

Rick’s cousin had her baby yesterday afternoon. *she is only 16*
She was meant to be having it around the 8th of May and ended up going in early and being induced. She is a small little thing and she gave birth to an 8 pound baby boy. I reason that if she can do it….well then so the hell can I!! But I am quite freaked out about having a big baby. Ultimately of course, I just want baby to be 100% fit and healthy. Well I don’t have anything else to write. I am tired. I just want to sleep, but I can’t. Not yet. I WILL catch up tho. I must!

Induction.

Well just about everything is done. It’s just after 10:30pm and I am about to get ready for bed. I am confident I will sleep well tonight as I am really tired. My MIL is going to be coming down as soon as she gets away from work, which is silly really, but I guess some support is better than none (outside of the hubby). My parents are not coming down until Friday late afternoon. Which I am kinda peeved about. As I expected them down here early just in case she comes on Friday. BUT….what can I do?? I guess I just have to get over it. If she comes earlyish then I guess they will not be there to see her for ages. I DID say come down Friday. I just thought they would come down in the morning…….??

My back on the left hand side is very sore again. I can’t wait till all these aches and pains are long forgotten. I hope tomorrow when they examine me, I am progressing somewhat or it’s going to be a long long stay. G’night!

So today I have just been focusing on getting the house straightened out and the Baby’s room organised, packing my hospital/baby bags and so on and so forth. It’s just past lunch time and I still have a long way to go….but there is light at the end of the tunnel. It helps me to keep busy, cuz then my mind is off what lies ahead. The baby is having the hiccups again right as I type. My back is aching. I just had a nice hot shower. Now I am waiting for the hubby to come home from work.

I am tired.

The breast pump came this morning and so did the SIDs Monitor. I am in the middle of washing the rest of the baby’s clothes and blankets and towels blah blah blah. Her room is going to look nice and fresh and bright. I just can’t wait until all of this is behind me and she is in my arms and we are home.

And we are almost at lift off!!
I was going to have Reflexology before I went in to be induced, but then I changed my mind and I was going to have a hot stone therapy done on my feet that included a dose of Reflexology, but then I changed my mind again and decided not to have anything done at all.

I have too much to do. And I kinda spent the money elsewhere too. We got the Baby Bjorn in the mail today and put it together, it’s great. Tomorrow is going to be dedicated to getting EVERYthing done. That includes packing bags, finishing baby’s room, installing Baby Capsule in car, cleaning the house and hopefully by doing all of that I will be soooo tired and will be able to crawl into bed and be knocked right out with exhaustion. I need all the sleep I can get before Thursday as I doubt I will be getting much when I am there.

I have my little camera charged and my d.v.d player charged and movies ready to go and all the creature comforts I can think I will need. I.e - toilet paper, vending machine money, blah blah blah. It all still feels like a strange dream….but I am sure I will be shocked into reality very soon!