Yes. Typical. It’s 4am and I should be fast asleep in bed. Alas, I am awake typing on the computer another blog…..about….??? I am not awake from lack of tiredness. Nooo, far from it. I am not awake thinking about what lies ahead today either. Tho I am most definitely thinking…..

I am awake through a combination of things, some being hubby and some being mine. Basically I figured, that, since Rick will be getting off to work early this morning, I will just suffer until then and go back to bed once he’s gone. In hindsight I should never have slept in the same room (let alone bed) as anyone tonight and I will remember that for next time. Yes, we have a big spare bed, but it’s covered in laundry that I folded yesterday and a big bag of vacuum sealed clothes that I have to put back into the cupboard and that mattress is just way too hard for sleeping on, in my condition. Next time, I will send Rick in there. He can sleep just bout anywhere these days.

Rick’s cousin had her baby yesterday afternoon. *she is only 16*
She was meant to be having it around the 8th of May and ended up going in early and being induced. She is a small little thing and she gave birth to an 8 pound baby boy. I reason that if she can do it….well then so the hell can I!! But I am quite freaked out about having a big baby. Ultimately of course, I just want baby to be 100% fit and healthy. Well I don’t have anything else to write. I am tired. I just want to sleep, but I can’t. Not yet. I WILL catch up tho. I must!

Induction.

Well just about everything is done. It’s just after 10:30pm and I am about to get ready for bed. I am confident I will sleep well tonight as I am really tired. My MIL is going to be coming down as soon as she gets away from work, which is silly really, but I guess some support is better than none (outside of the hubby). My parents are not coming down until Friday late afternoon. Which I am kinda peeved about. As I expected them down here early just in case she comes on Friday. BUT….what can I do?? I guess I just have to get over it. If she comes earlyish then I guess they will not be there to see her for ages. I DID say come down Friday. I just thought they would come down in the morning…….??

My back on the left hand side is very sore again. I can’t wait till all these aches and pains are long forgotten. I hope tomorrow when they examine me, I am progressing somewhat or it’s going to be a long long stay. G’night!

So today I have just been focusing on getting the house straightened out and the Baby’s room organised, packing my hospital/baby bags and so on and so forth. It’s just past lunch time and I still have a long way to go….but there is light at the end of the tunnel. It helps me to keep busy, cuz then my mind is off what lies ahead. The baby is having the hiccups again right as I type. My back is aching. I just had a nice hot shower. Now I am waiting for the hubby to come home from work.

I am tired.

The breast pump came this morning and so did the SIDs Monitor. I am in the middle of washing the rest of the baby’s clothes and blankets and towels blah blah blah. Her room is going to look nice and fresh and bright. I just can’t wait until all of this is behind me and she is in my arms and we are home.

And we are almost at lift off!!
I was going to have Reflexology before I went in to be induced, but then I changed my mind and I was going to have a hot stone therapy done on my feet that included a dose of Reflexology, but then I changed my mind again and decided not to have anything done at all.

I have too much to do. And I kinda spent the money elsewhere too. We got the Baby Bjorn in the mail today and put it together, it’s great. Tomorrow is going to be dedicated to getting EVERYthing done. That includes packing bags, finishing baby’s room, installing Baby Capsule in car, cleaning the house and hopefully by doing all of that I will be soooo tired and will be able to crawl into bed and be knocked right out with exhaustion. I need all the sleep I can get before Thursday as I doubt I will be getting much when I am there.

I have my little camera charged and my d.v.d player charged and movies ready to go and all the creature comforts I can think I will need. I.e - toilet paper, vending machine money, blah blah blah. It all still feels like a strange dream….but I am sure I will be shocked into reality very soon!

WOW!
Only 3 more sleeps till Thursday…the BIG day!
I go from feeling freaked out, to calm. Rick is getting excited (not that he outright says it, but I can tell :P). I still have everything to do. For me right now, everything is getting hard to do. Today I am getting my hair done. So that when baby comes and I have photo’s done, I look okay in the hair department at least. My latest shoe boots arrived from the U.S.A today. I can’t wait until I can wear them. I should post photo’s of my boots….I LURVE them, but can’t wear them till the baby is out as I don’t want to slip over again

I am going to try and book in a reflexology appointment today. I don’t want to do any accupuncture. I want massage. I have been reading that reflexology massage is good, as you can press the pressure points that help with inducing labour naturally. I don’t care about that anymore…..it’s so close anyways….I just want a massage

and all is well, cept for the fact that I can’t sleep anymore. I have been laying in bed for ages just thinking about everything and so I checked my mobile for the time and decided there was no point in just laying there anymore. So up I got.

Baby is doing twists or something like it for the last 15 minutes or so and it’s not a nice feeling right now. I know that I will probably miss feeling her movements once she is born. Every single evening, when Rick and I crash out in the lounge room, she has a thing for moving to the right hand side of the belly. And sticking her bum/feet right under my right boob/rib and it is sooooo uncomfortable. But obviously as she does it every single night and has been for a while, she is her most comfortable there

It’s Saturday night and I have 5 sleeps till I go in to be Induced.
Rick is looking forward to Thursday. Which of course makes me happy. And we are both hoping that he will be able to stay the night with me in the hospital, even if he has to sleep on the floor. He has been really supportive and positive the last week and it is making me feel confident about what lies ahead. Father in Law has lent me his portable d.v.d player and we are going to get some movies, so just in case I am in there for a long time, I will have something to keep me occupied.

Went shopping today and we picked up the Baby Movement Monitor by Tommee Tippee. But we are thinking of taking it back tomorrow and getting a different one. Also got a head support thingy for the capsule so that baby doesn’t have a lolling around little head when she is in the car. And last but not least we got some window shade thingys that will suffice for now as the car’s windows are not yet tinted.

Still have everything to get done. Tomorrow we have the garage to clean out and to organise to make it easier to get baby in and out of the car. Might pick up some picture hanging wire so we can get on with putting up the piccies in her room too. Getting my hair done on Monday morning and maybe on Tuesday I will have a session of Reflexology done. Whether it works or not I don’t know, but I am looking forward to being pampered for the hour

Holy Crap.
Only 1 week to go!!!
Went in for my antenatal appointment yesterday and saw the OB and pretty much straight off the bat she said she was moving my Induction forward as I have diabetes and it should be done at 38 weeks not 39. So it is what it is and I am totally freaking my pants off.

It’s awesome knowing when she will be roughly arriving into the world tho! I can have everyone around me (or nearby) right when I need them to be!!! And who wouldn’t want their family around them at such a time??!!

I am happy that I only have 1 more week of Gestational Diabetes and Insulin Injections to go. I really want to stick to the diet that I have been on tho!! I couldn’t recommend it enough I am not going to miss the back pain, crap sleep, acid reflux/heartburn, tiredness, breathlessness or the daggy/boring clothes though!

I am scared.

I am excited.

But mostly I am scared…..

So tomorrow (thurs) I have an appointment with the Diabetes Educator and hopefully another appointment with an OB. I am really going to plead for another Growth Scan or to bring the Induction date forward. I am really really worried that my baby is going to get too big. I guess I will see just how much tomorrow when they measure me.

I am starting to get my hospital/labour bags packed. Just in case. After tomorrow I only have one more appointment at the hospital and then I go in for my Induction. I am freaking out about it. In one way it’s nice to know basically when my baby will be on her way, so I can make plans for family to be nearby. But then it’s scary at the same time as it’s not going to be a spontaneous thing, it’s planned and therefore I know when one of the biggest days of my life is going to be happening and of course I am scared of the whole process.

We have the baby’s chest of drawers…..sitting in a box…..waiting for us to assemble it. I hope that we can do that this weekend at some point and then I can get on with finishing the baby’s room.

for the baby to come out now.
Bedtime is becoming more and more undesirable, as the quality of sleep I am getting is rubbish. And I don’t even have the baby here yet. I hate it when I hear “it’s getting you prepared for when your baby is here”. That is BS. The reason I am having bad sleep is because I am pregnant and I wake up every 2-3 hours with acid reflux and the water I drink at those times is waking me up also, as I am busting to go to the bathroom. I can’t sleep on my back. I can’t sleep on my right side (my fave side) as it’s quite painful for me. And my hips are really painful every morning now too. I won’t be going through any of those things once the baby is born. I will be going through a whole new set of feelings along with tiredness.

Anyway, there really isn’t anything I can do about it. I am just very lucky that I don’t have to wake up at the crack of dawn to get ready for work. I am able to sleep in a little while to try and get a couple of hours of decent sleep in the bed alone.

I will hopefully be seeing an OB this week as well as the Diabetes Educator. I am thinking of asking for another ultrasound to get an idea of how big baby is as I am totally freaking out since my last appointment. As I was measuring quite big. I am also thinking of having some reflexology on my feet done as I have read/heard that it can help bring on labour….. so we will see.